Thursday, April 30, 2020

One Second Every Day: April


One second every day in the month of April. Our state has been under a Shelter-in-Place order all month that expires tomorrow. However this hasn’t stopped our crew from neighborhood bike rides and walks. Campfires and the boys learning how to rappel in our backyard. We celebrated Easter and Isaac’s birthday. There have been forts, inside and outside. The boys have now slept on our porch or deck for 26 nights — only coming inside for the really cold nights and the one night when Isaac randomly got stung by a bumblebee that had gotten stuck in his sleeping bag. Jack has lost two teeth during quarantine and the boys have been helping Daniel build a treehouse in the backyard with materials we had on hand. As far as quarantine life goes, our family has it pretty easy with a property that has plenty of spots to explore, beautiful views within biking distance, and neighborhood trails.

Tuesday, April 28, 2020

CVSD: Day 48

My last post was about being concerned about my ongoing cough and pain in my arm. Friday night I shared what was going on with my small group. One of my friends is a doctor and he suggested I see a doctor about getting an ultrasound on my arm to put all worry to rest. My sister and brother had also encouraged me to do this.

Saturday I set up a virtual appointment with a walk-in clinic, but they said I would have to be seen in person to get a referral for an ultrasound. Further more the only place that could do an ultrasound on the weekend would be an ER. I decided to wait it out and just watch out for additional symptoms.

Over the course of the weekend my arm pain remained the same, but my cough worsened.

Monday morning I visited a walk in clinic. There was a tent set up outside for initial contact. When I stated that I had had a cough for 40+ days, they got really concerned and separated me from anyone else immediately. Vitals were taken in the tent. I had to photograph my insurance card and ID with my phone and email it to the clinic. After this they walked me around back to a separate entrance (in lieu of going through the waiting room).

When the doctor arrived he had on an N-95 mask, face shield, gown and gloves. He asked me lots of questions, listened intently and showed great concern for me and my fears and anxieties. He examined my chest and arm and said my lungs sounded good overall, and said that I most likely had nerve pain but would get me a referral for an ultrasound to put my fears to rest. He then ordered a blood count and x-rays of my chest.

When the doctor came in the second time to share about my results, he was no longer wearing the N-95 mask or face, which immediately made me feel better seeing that his level of worry had obviously dropped. My blood count was good and x-rays showed no pneumonia but signs of bronchitis. They gave me a steroid shot to help with the arm pain and said it would also help my lungs. I was also given prescriptions for steroid pills, antibiotics, and an inhaler.

Later that afternoon I went to get my ultrasound. The tech was really nice and told me at the end of the exam that I didn't have a clot. That was such a relief. I've had many an ultrasound that had bad results in the past (blood clot in my leg and also miscarriage). It was hard not to be anxious throughout the whole day.

Thankfully my results were better than expected and I felt a great deal of relief leaving the doctor. Today I am feeling tremendously better thanks to the shot and the start of antibiotics. This pandemic has been a scary time. The clinic I visited did not have testing for Covid-19, and unless they could treat it, I am ok not knowing for certain.

I know that I am not alone in feeling anxious over the last six weeks. It is so hard to know how to feel when there is so much that is unknown about this virus.

Our state has been doing more testing and therefore has more positive cases, but the governor is working to start opening up the economy on Friday, May 1st. I'm not sure what to make of this. In addition, the USA has passed the one million mark in terms of positive cases yesterday. It was just 26 days ago that the world hit the one million mark.

Friday, April 24, 2020

CVSD: Day 43

The pain in my arm woke me up this morning around 5am. It felt a lot worse today and I started to get shaky (nerves verses chills, not so sure). I woke Daniel up and we discussed course of action. We finally decided I should call his dad, a retired family doctor.

It was 6am when I called him. When I had a blood clot in my leg in 2008, he was the one to figure it out, over the phone. This morning we discussed the possibility of a clot – he thought it was a low likelihood based on my description. We talked about my cough, the headaches, the dizziness I experienced on Wednesday.

He decided to come over and check my arm out in person just to get a better idea of what is going on with me. So he showed up around 7:30, along with his wife (a retired nurse). We discussed my symptoms more and he thinks my arm pain is related to nerve pain. Possibly Synovitus. He also thought that there is a good chance I could have Covid-19, but since I have been coughing for so long and never had a fever, he didn't think I am at risk for worse symptoms. He did suggest I go get tested.

There are some free drive-in testing clinics in Chattanooga this weekend. I am on the fence about exposing myself to other people when there is not anything they can actually do for this virus, unless it gets worse...

Just writing all this out so I have a record on how I have been feeling and steps taken.

Thursday, April 23, 2020

CVSD: Day 42

Yall, I have had a cough since this whole coronavirus in the US started. That's like 42 days, if you're counting. Isaac has had a good cough for a week. I'm pretty sure he has allergies and Claritin at bed seems to help him. Daniel has also developed a cough this week. Jack does not have a cough.

Yesterday I may have experienced a small panic attack. I have been coughing so hard that I was gagging and pulling muscles. I also have had arm pain since Sunday followed by neck pain. I'm fairly certain I just have a pinched nerve, but these days, who knows?

As for the panic... I wasn't feeling great yesterday and the more I coughed the more my heart started racing and I started to feel dizzy and it gave me a headache. I tried to nap but felt worse and all of a sudden it all felt like too much. My chest was super tight and I couldn't get ahold of the crazy cough.

I wasn't sure what to do, so I hopped in the shower. The heat calmed me down. When I got out I used Vicks on my chest and bottoms of my feet and finally felt like I could breathe again. I took an Excedrin and called a BCBS nurse hotline. To be honest I felt silly talking to the nurse. Other than the cough and arm pain, I didn't really have any symptoms. And while a lingering cough stinks, I have not had a fever or chills.

There is talk that our state will open up soon. I know the economy is tanking but I also know history is full of examples of people breaking quarantines too soon and more people dying. I'm just ready for all of my family to be over this cough.

Saturday, April 18, 2020

CVSD: Day 38

Issac is officially FIVE. Celebrating during a pandemic was not my favorite, but it was a good day for our little guy nonetheless.

From donuts for breakfast to video chats with my family and also the kids Nana. And even a surprise visit from Grandpa and Abuela, who popped by to sing and bring a present. There were virtual wishes online and some friends even drove by to sing Happy Birthday, while other friends dropped homemade cards in our mailbox.

I had initially thought we would ask our friends to do a Birthday Parade drive by for Isaac, but then we were told to Shelter in Place. While I know a lot of people still do the parades, I didn't feel right asking a bunch of people to drive by. That being said, we did love seeing our friends that drove by anyway unasked.

Also, Isaac gets super embarrassed with too much attention, so while one mini van was nice, I think a slew of them would have been too much for him. As for me, I went inside and cried after they left. It was so good to see friends, but it was hard too because we didn't get to visit and I miss them so much.

Per tradition, Isaac and I made a homemade cake — a Minecraft sword this year. There were presents to open — including Isaac’s first climbing harness. This gave Daniel a reason to rig up a temporary zipline in the back yard. Then he repurposed the rope so he could teach the boys how to rappel down the rock face in our yard. Jack was a bigger fan of this than Isaac but both had fun. 

Finally we celebrated with ramen noodles (Isaac’s request) and pizza. Followed by cake and a movie. It was a good day, even if we are missing our family and friends.


*Isaac had also requested a Nerf war and soccer game and he really wanted a Play Station with Minecraft (those are crazy expensive and hard to come by right now). We will make up the Nerf war and soccer game later.

Friday, April 17, 2020

CVSD: Day 37

On a daily basis, I find myself thinking of everything in terms of numbers these days. I guess it gives me some semblance of control.

2.1 million – approx. number of Coronavirus cases worldwide
667,000 – approx. number of CV cases in the USA
6,000 – approx. number of CV cases in Tennessee
37 – number of days we have been self isolating
24 – number of work days Daniel has been working from our kitchen table
17 – number of nights the kids have slept in cushion forts (on back deck, in screened porch, in basement)
15 – number of days we have been sheltering in place
3 – number of times I have been to the grocery store since this all started
2 – number of work projects I've completed

Thursday, April 16, 2020

CVSD: Day 36

If life was normal, I would have taken donuts to Isaac at his preschool today to celebrate his 5th birthday. I'm grieving that this couldn't happen.

For the past six years we have had a child attending our local preschool and I can recall several distinct moments that I dropped Isaac off and had the thought that we were walking through some last experiences at our preschool (last Halloween party, last Teddy Bear picnic, etc).

Yesterday, the governor of Tennessee called for schools to be cancelled for the rest of the school year. This means that many of the last moments I was anticipating won't come to fruition. There was no Easter party and Egg Hunt. There won't be a Muffins with Moms, preschool graduation, or a year-end party. We just came home form school one day and never went back.

These lost moments make me sad. They also make me feel guilty because beyond the loss of nostalgia, people in our area have lost so much from the recent tornadoes, and the coronavirus itself. So sadness, but also guilt because I still have so much.

Monday, April 13, 2020

CVSD: Day 33

At the beginning of March, middle Tennessee was hit by a series of terrifying tornadoes in the middle of the night. East Nashville, where my brother and Daniel's sister both live, was devastated. The storm rolled on to Cookeville (where we used to live) and many people lost everything. It was horrific, but thankfully our family members and their properties were okay.

Fast forward several weeks and our state was put under a quarantine lock down followed by a shelter-at-home order. It's been a hard month. But Tennesseans have stepped up and taken care of each other, even amidst the hardness of it all.

On Sunday we celebrated Easter. Holidays on your own are hard. Quarantine holidays are sad. Daniel and I both had migraines. Daniel's dad and his wife drove over to give the kids Easter presents. They stayed on our upper deck and we chatted with them from our porch for a little bit before it started raining.

Worshipping from the living room, via YouTube, is proving to be one of our least favorite aspects of quarantine. I have never felt more profoundly that "the church" is really the people. And I miss the people. I am so thankful to know that the grave is empty, but we miss celebrating that important part of history with our church family.

We were expecting bad weather Sunday night, and right around midnight things got bad. Daniel and I were watching Netflix. It was a loud fight scene, but the wind was howling so loudly that I made Daniel pause our show and flip over to catch the weather. My app on my phone just said severe weather. It sounded worse than that. I kept searching. Finally we found a news station saying "Tornado Warning" for south east Chattanooga. We are north of Chattanooga, but the wind was crazy loud.

By morning we would learn that the east side of the city was hit by an F-3 tornado. Whole neighborhoods are decimated. Live wires cover the ground in some areas. All of our friends are okay, but many are out of power and there is a lot of damage to contend with. Because of the coronavirus, we are told that the best way to help is to stay home and let the first responders do their work. Even though we are fine, there is an emotional component of this that makes this feel extra hard. Hopefully there will be ways that we can help in the days to come. In the meantime, we are continuing to shelter at home.

Saturday, April 11, 2020

CVSD: Day 31

It's Easter weeked and the USA has passed the half a million mark for confirmed cases of Covid-19, though the numbers are probably way higher considering how many people have not been tested.

Worldwide, the number is around 1.75 million. The number of cases being reported daily in China is less than 100, so either the disease has run its course there or they are not reporting correctly. It's hard to know what is what these days as there seems to be a lot of misinformation floating around.

I have been feeling very contemplative lately. I pray more. Read my Bible more. And don't have many words to say. My energy has gone to keeping life as normal as possible for our kids. Today that meant an Easter Egg Hunt in our back yard.

My allergies are kicking in. Sore throat. Headache. Watery eyes. I just want to nap. That's about where things are right now in my world. I love my family and miss my friends.

Psalm 46:1-3 God is our refuge and strength, an everpresent help in trouble. Therefore we will not fear, though the earth give way and the mountains fall into the heart of the sea, though its waters roar and foam and the mountains quake with their surging... vs. 10 Be still, and know that I am God.

Wednesday, April 08, 2020

CVSD: Day 28

We have been trying to space out our weekly grocery trips to about ten days apart. This means a big shopping trip, and no we aren't hoarding. These trips make me thankful for the pre-quarantine days when I could hit up the grocery two or more times a week. This is one luxury that I am looking forward to in the future.

I geared up this morning, making a homemade mask and putting laundry baskets in the car with lysol wipes. Masks are now recommended for all Americans and our local grocery stores are limiting the number of customers allowed in at one time.

I arrived around 9:30am and walked right in. My mask was hot and itchy. Most other shoppers had masks, some did not.

Easter is on Sunday and Isaac's 5th Birthday is in 10 days. I picked up some goodies for an Easter Egg Hunt and Easter Baskets. I couldn't bring myself to look at Easter outfits. I also snagged some egg decorating kids and decorations for a birthday party. We are ordering Isaac's gifts online... hopefully they will get here in time.

As I walked through the store, most customers were cautious and polite with kind eyes peering out over masks. Since I had so much to buy, I noticed that by the time I was ending my shopping, the aisles were getting more crowded. I just did my best to stay 6 feet away from people.

In the baking aisle, I stopped an employee to ask if there was any yeast available as I had been unable to locate any. The poor man immediately directed me to stand back 6 feet. He was definitely on edge. I gave him his space and he softened and said that he didn't think they had any yeast. I thanked him and started to walk off when he spoke up, curious about yeast. He mentioned that the yeast had flown off the shelves and he had bought some, but was unsure what to do with it. Even so, he figured it was important since it kept selling out. I told him I used it to make bread since we are only allowed one loaf. A loaf lasts my family about three days, so I have been supplementing with homemade bread. He had no idea and thanked me for clearing up this great mystery for him. It was nice to have a conversation with another human. Even if we were speaking through masks.

I finished up my shopping and went to wait in a long check-out line. The poor lady working the the check-out looked exhausted and worried. I told her that I appreciated her being there. There are so many people I appreciate but I'm not always great at telling them. These days I am trying my best to let people know that I appreciate them.

After getting my groceries wiped down with Lysol wipes and loaded into the car, I headed home where my boys put all the groceries away while I showered and decontaminated myself. Any time I go to the store (this is my third trip in four weeks), Isaac gives me a big hug and thanks me for buying all of his favorite foods.

Monday, April 06, 2020

CVSD: Day 26

Today is the start of Spring Break. And we are sheltering in place at home, along with most of America.

Jack has been asking for forever when Spring Break would start. He is just glad to not have to crack a book all week. I have never been so grateful that our boys get along so well and that we have an acre of woods for them to spend a good portion of every day exploring.

We rarely hear them say that they are bored, though they do regularly ask for us to buy them a gaming system and Minecraft (but they asked for that before the pandemic). I think we will get them something soon, but we have still been holding off.

If they do say the "b" word (bored) they know they will be given the option to figure out something to do or be given a chore to complete. They typically figure out something for themselves.

They are working on building a tree house out of materials we already have at our house; they built a stick and leaf shelter/fort; and have created their own Adventure Club. I believe it requires wearing camo, carrying binoculars and exploring the woods.

When they tire of exploring, they have been playing an ongoing game of tag that has morphed into various versions. First it was bike tag – they just had to get close enough to yell the other person's name and say "You're it!" Then today it was hammock tag – they have hung their hammocks one above the other and flip over and over trying to tag any exposed skin on the other person before one of them flips again. Another version was on the back porch and they would name objects leading to the other person to "tag" – for example, Isaac was standing on the couch so Jack said, "I tagged the floor, the floor tagged the couch, and the couch tagged you! You're it!" They think these games are hilarious and play for long periods of time. I love their inventiveness.

Tonight will mark the 9th night they have slept outside on our back porch. I am tempted to offer to let them set up our two-man tent out there, but they seem pretty content with their fortress of cushions.

Every year I try to keep track of the birds that are flocking back to our property. So far this year we have spotted the following: a Red Shouldered Hawk, several Pileated Woodpeckers, lots of Yellow Bellied Sap Suckers, a Screen Owl, Cardinals, quite a few Tufted Titmouse, a Northern Mockingjay, crows, a Morning Dove, a Goldfinch, sparrows, chickadees, and so many other birds that I constantly hear but haven't gotten eyes on yet. We typically see quite a few Bluebirds but I haven't noticed any so far this year.

I wish we could go somewhere fun for Spring Break, but if we have to be stuck at home, our property is a pretty nice place to be stuck.

Saturday, April 04, 2020

CVSD: Day 24

We have now been home for 24 days straight. I've gone out twice for groceries and Daniel had to go on site for work twice in that time. He also ran some errands yesterday knowing that the shelter-in-place would take affect today. The kids have left our neighborhood once in that time period (we went on a family hike on a neighboring mountain). Other than that, we have allowed bike riding and walks around our neighborhood.

I am finding that we are fairly suited to this self isolation thing. I have a feeling that our yearly camping trips (ranging from 3-3.5 weeks) have played a part in helping our family cope with being on our own. While we are all missing our friends, Daniel is really missing being in the field for work. Being chained to our dining room table and his phone for 8+ hours a day has been hard on him.

A few things I am doing differently over the last few weeks: I've been baking bread each week. I am a lot more conscious of leftovers and not letting food go to waste. And we recently started a compost pile – Jack is determined to grow some food this year and he spearheaded the compost idea. I think we will be starting a small vegetable garden as part of our homeschooling. We live on a really wooded lot, but I think we can find enough sunshine to support a 3x3 bed.

The kids have slept outside for 5 of the last 7 nights (two of those nights we made them stay in because it was cold). They are pretty determined to continue to sleep on the porch. At the end of this pandemic, if the only thing our kids remember is that they got to sleep in cushions fort for months on end, I will call that a win for their childhood.

Thursday, April 02, 2020

CVSD: Day 22

The number of worldwide Coronavirus cases hit one million today. Almost a quarter of those cases are in the USA (I believe the number was around 240,000). Of those cases, 90,000 something were in New York State (Tennessee currently has around 3,100 cases). It's nuts that those are the numbers we are seeing.

This afternoon the governor of Tennessee issued a shelter-in-place order a couple of hours after the mayor of Chattanooga made this same decision for the city.  Almost all parks and trails are closed. We watched the Signal Mountain Town Hall meeting early this week and they said they had to close our local trail because people from as far away as Atlanta and Nashville were overwhelming the trails, which makes social distancing while hiking next to impossible. It stinks that strangers have ruined that for our community.

While we feel somewhat isolated from what is going on (which is the point of the social distancing), it is all feeling a lot more real with these orders. Also, many of our friends are experiencing layoffs. The economy is in the toilet. Not sure what this will all look like at the end, but continuing to pray for those directly affected and those working jobs that put them right in the middle of it every day.

Gas is currently $1.51 within 5 miles of where we live. That is the cheapest in decades. Not that we need gas to go anywhere right now...

Wednesday, April 01, 2020

Weekly Hikes in March

Green Gorge, Signal Mountain
 

In January I had this goal of getting back to hiking every week with my kids. That grew into hiking with a group of friends and the added challenge of finding a new place to hike each week. We are so blessed to live in an area that has an abundance of hiking. March saw us falling off on both of these goals. But it's ok. We are ok. And we are still getting outside as much as possible.


For our first hike in March, none of our homeschool hiking buddies were able to join us, so I messaged a neighbor whose son goes to a private school that gets out early, and they were able to join us on a quick hike to one of our favorite neighborhood trails.

North Chickamauga Creek to Strip Mine Falls (Blue Hole), Mowbray Mountain

The second hike we went on was a new one for us, and we were delighted to have several other families join us. We hit up the North Chickamauga Creek Gorge where we hiked to Strip Mine Falls via the Hodgkin Loop.


The kids had such a blast. We hiked the loop in reverse so that we could end at the creek. I knew that kids would get distracted with throwing rocks in the water, and I didn't want to spend half of the hike nagging kids to keep moving.


It was a perfect way to do this hike. The kids got to explore and climb on parts of the bluff, cross the Strip Mine waterfall twice, and then enjoy the rushing creek while the mamas talked.


They also found a crevice in a rock that they could shimmy up. They could have spent hours at this special spot climbing up through the hole. This was such a great hike. We will definitely be back!

 Green Gorge, Signal Mountain

The same week as the North Chick hike, our community was told to start practice social distancing. For us, this meant pretty much locking down our family to our neighborhood, though we did have one friend that we continued to stay in contact with for the remainder of the month. He was able to join us on a walk to Green Gorge (our neighborhood trail) for our third hike of the month.


The boys also spent the last three weeks riding bikes with him. Biking makes it fairly easy to social distance. As of today our state has called for "sheltering-in-place" so they boys can no longer play with this friend and they are super bummed about this latest development in the era of the Coronavirus.



To be honest, the first week of social distancing was hard. Unexpected change can be challenging, no matter how old you are. And I was really struggling.

Green Gorge, Signal Mountain

I ended up taking a walk by myself one night in the rain. I found myself down at Green Gorge. Just me and the creek and God. It was so therapeutic and I came back ready to embrace whatever lies ahead of all of us.

 Three Gorges Segment of Cumberland Trail, Mowbray Mountain

The following week, we took Daniel and ventured off our mountain for a family hike on Mowbray Mountain. We did this section of the Cumberland Trail last month with some friends. The kids loved showing Daniel their favorite places to explore and climb on this trail.


We saw a total of 8 other hikers all afternoon ad were able to safely distance ourselves. It was so good for our family to get outside together.


We hope to be able to take neighborhood walks and bike rides while we shelter-in-place for an unknown amount of time. All of our parks and trails have been closed. We watched a live Town Hall meeting last week on YouTube and were saddened that the town council had to close some of our trails because there had been a huge influx of people from places like Atlanta and Nashville overwhelming the trails of our little community.


I am so glad we live on a wooded property. The kids can still climb our huge rock wall and explore our woods. Their hammocks are up and they spend 80% of every day outside. I feel so terrible for people living in apartments or homes with tiny yards during this crisis. We spend part of every day watching the birds and squirrels and chipmunks in our yard. All we have to do is look out our windows.

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